I know that in the end, it's up to me, and only how I feel can make the decision for me but I just needed to air some things out (and hopefully get some feedback). None of my friends ride, so trying to talk to them about riding just goes nowhere.
I've ridden all my life, when I was a wee lad I had a Yamaha y-zinger (I think that's the name, can't really remember that far back). It was 50cc, no shifting needed...basically just the thing to let a kid get in way too much trouble on his grandma's farm (i even rode it into a barbed wire fence once...lucky to come out of that with minimal damage). Anyway, graduated to bigger dirtbikes, then to a streetbike, then a sportbike, then a dark period with no bike at all. I came back to it last year and loved every second of it.
However, these past few months are making me rethink things. I guess to much time spent reading forums and not being on the road causes a guy to think in other ways. Reading about all the crashes and deaths (and anniversaries of accidents) is really making me think hard about getting back on my bike. Even the few times that I've gone out over the winter I've just been thinking about not laying it down, or not getting hit by a cage, rather than how much fun it is (which thinking back, wasn't fun at all...too stressed).
I guess I'm thining about all the inherent risk in life, why do I want to add to that risk? The thought of leaving my wife and family and friends without me worries and scares me. Where are these thoughts coming from? I never used to have them (not even last year, which was my first year back on a bike after a ~10 year break).
If I had to make the decision today, I'd be putting up the ninja for sale. Fortunately, I don't have to make a decision today, so only time will tell. Any of you go through similar phases? What eventually pushed you one way or the other?