I have just received a P/M from a member, which message rather surprised me.
I had no idea that my 'dick-head thread' had ruffled as many feathers, or pushed as many noses out of joint as it did. I also never read ANY of anybody's posts on that thread afterwards, so I have no idea who said what, who made what claims or assertions ... and who demanded an apology.
I am doing no back-pedalling.
You may all rest assured, that that thread was not directed at ANY member specifically, except perhaps one or two people who had said some things that ended up being taken out of context (by their recipient) and caused, indirectly as it may have been, SEVERE problems.
I posted what I did, shortly after hearing a level of sadness/despair in someone's voice, that was frighteningly similar to the tone and tenor I heard in my friend Rob's speech, shortly before he committed suicide.
One of those was enough.
If in any way some communication channels have been opened between people such that relationships are somewhat repaired and senses of slef-worth bolstered ... then the button pushing has been worth it.
If, in my extremely 'abrasive' attempt, under the extreme stresses of that time, to keep yet another tragedy from unfolding succeeded ... then anyone I may have offended or pissed of here-on, well ... "suck it up, butter-cup".
If my cost has been the comeraderie and respect of all of you, but the gain has been one life, one heart and one soul ... to me it was well worth it.
I am sorry if that pissed anyone off.
So be it. But name-calling ... I thought that was left behind in grade five.
ps: moderators - I hope you can see the need for this to have been said/posted publicly.