Sorry to hear that your having a hard time dealing with it , as with most people/ riders would . Watching something like that can change the way you think , i would get a hold of your employer or icbc and see if there someone you can talk to about it. Lots of nice people in here that have gone through the same sort of thing ,I know they would help , It takes a brave person to be there in the end and do what needs to be done . Sorry that the out come was a bad one , by doing the right thing you should know that you people where there being the little bit of comfort he needed , what ever you do try not to keep it inside , lots of good people to talk to . sorry again . ps don't sell your stuff, riding is just to much fun i have been riding for 32 years and having more fun all the time , take care .